~thank god~

Thank god, that you're getting better each day.

Thank god, that you've granted my wish, or everyone's wishes, i suppose.

Thank god, that you're strong enough to go through all this.

Thank god, that you listened to our prayer.

Dear friend, all of your friends, including me myself are waiting for you to come out.. Get well soon...

Gambateh...:)

~等着你~

亲爱的朋友，虽然认识你的时日不长，收到这个消息后，我都呆住了，眼泪不听使唤地从眼角滚下来。
亲爱的朋友，你这个人给我的第一个印象就是有志气，有义气，还有骨气。就因为这样，你身旁终是有很多朋友围绕着。
亲爱的朋友，大家都等着你好起来,你一定要好起来，一定要好！！！！

伟大的上帝，请你保佑我的这位朋友，一定要好起来。

亲爱的朋友，我们都在等着你。。

~Happy Moments~

??What makes me HAPPY??

I'm HAPPY the most when i'm with someone i love, especially my family and my boyfriend. I will feel extremely happy just to see them happy and laugh their heart out. I love them unconditionally. I love the moment where we eat together around the table, sharing each other's jokes ,listening to daddy and mummy talking about their experiences. After I came to KL to further my studies, only i realize how precious is family. I love them dearly.. Staying away from them, even a short message or a short phone call from them will make me happy for the rest of the day.. *hehe*

Besides that, i'm super-duper happy when we went for a holiday. Just US!! I remembered once we spend our holiday at Perth, Australia. Those days were unforgettable. Those were the time where throw our problems behind, daddy throw away his workloads behind, leaving all those unhappy stuff in Malaysia.

To put it in a nut shell, being with my love ones, no matter where and when, will make me extremely HAPPY!!!

"It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, That makes happiness"

- Charles Spergeon

p/s: pls give me a vote ya..hehe

~.....~

Today is a very, very long day for me. Infact, it has been like this since, i duno..weeks? It's not that i have nothing to do, but, i really don't have mood in moving my ass to my study table. I don't know, it isn't messy, only that it's pile up with tidy lecture notes and text books. Instead, i've been sitting infront of the television for..5 hours? There are so many shows keep coming in, from American Idol, move on to American Next Top Model, and Janice Dickinson Modeling Agencies.

Phone haven't been ringing as frequent as it used to be. However, i'll try my best to get use to it.

I'll learn how to live for my OWN!! own means sendiri, not depending on others. Not for others!! fedup

Gotta head to my pillow..good night

::kuanru:: signing off *hoping for a better tomorrow*

~a fabulous singer~

He, is fab-bu-lous!! his voice is so powerful... He is Jam Xiao Jin Teng!!

I've watched him sing once, on a show which i can't recall, and from that day, and at that particular moment, i've fall in love with his voice.. especially when he sings and plays with the keyboard.. when i first saw him, the first sentence that came out from my mouth is 'god, he's so shy!!'...

oh, ya ya..i remembered the first time i knew him is during the show host by ASOS..

But, when he started to sing, i'm really stunned with his voice.. and can u guess?? his age is only 20 years old!! younger than me one year!! well, he definitely looks mature than me... he portrays each song with his own style, in his own way.. *tabik*

you guys should check it out..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1iZa7G8_F0&feature=related

*too bad i can't find a pic of him..*

~朋友~

亲爱的朋友，读了你的部落，我，掉泪了。

能认识你们，是彼此的缘份。我，不想伪装着自己，我，只想看到你们快乐。我，可以是个小丑，只要我爱的人快乐。

在家也是，在学校也是，只要你们答应我，一定要快乐。

亲爱的，不必为我操心，因为我是‘英国女王’。

最近所发生的事情，来得太快，压力越来越大，要处理的事情越来越多，烦恼的事情也显然增加。你们会觉得，这些都是必经之路，但，我的烦恼不只这些。可是，你们放心，因为，我，长大了。

亲爱的，我的好姐妹，谢谢你。你的关心，我心领了。

~坚强背后的脆弱~

坚强的背后，是脆弱，还是一样坚强？

外表再怎样装得坚强，冷酷，内心还是十分脆弱。为了不要再受伤，为了不要再被遗忘，为了不再孤独，为了所有的一切一切，只好坚强。常常问自己，我还是我吗？我，开始迷失了方向，就象断了线的风筝。

坚强得太久，伪装得太久，始终会觉得累，有一天还是会崩溃。

好想把所有的一切一切抛在脑后，回去属于自己的家，自己的空间好好放松自己，好想放弃一切，好想回到过去，那无忧无虑的童年，好想给我的家人一个拥抱，告诉他们我有多想他们，多爱他们。。他们无条件地付出，让我加强了心，好好把书念完，好好报答他们。

但，我真的好累了。好久没有好好睡一觉。身心疲惫，有谁了解，有谁愿意了解？就持着一颗自私的心，往往把我抛在后头。我知道，我不能逃避，我不能放弃，我应坦然面对。为了所有爱我的人，还有我爱的人，我会加油，我会慢慢收拾心情，再往前冲。

放心，我会把梦想变成事实。

~Farewell - Fei Jie~

A sad news i just received just now. I know, she died yesterday. As i googled, i saw some posting like Lydis Sum died. i can't believe it, and i don't want this to be real. i thought it was just another rumour. As i clicked on it, more posts and websites about this bad news. I was sad, very sad. She's not very old, i mean, for me, at the age of 61 is not old.

Since i was young, i knew her existence. In my mind, she was so optimistic. I have always watched her hosting variety shows, i've forgotten the title, but i'm not mistaken, it's 'Enjoy yourself tonight'. She brings so much laughter, and she really makes my life brighter. She also starred in Singaporean English sitcom 'Living with Lydia', which i used to follow it every week. She brought us alot of joy.

She was battling with her illness since last year, going in and out of the hospital. Maybe this is a way for her to be relieve from the pain and suffer, to be with God. Hopfully her daughter, Joyce, stay strong..

RIP- Lydia Sum. We will miss u..

~L.O.V.E.~

i was just hopping from one blog to another, as usual, i loves reading blogs, i love to see how people writes, the feelings of people, and how people react in a certain way. As i was hopping from one blog to another, i found one of my classmate's blog. Joanne's. Every word that she wrote give me some new inspiration, her words were full with feelings and meaning. Furthermore, there was this music keep on playing that i don't wish to stop.

Love, for some people, might be tough, but for others, it might be as sweet as candies. We always see 'forever love', 'love you forever', etc. everywhere, printed on the cups, cards, pillow, you name it. But, how many love will last Forever? Will everyone have a happily ever after ending as in Sleeping Beauty or Cinderella?

Love is complicated. I agree. It can make you feel like you're the best in the world, it can also makes you feel like you're even worst and useless than a trash. But, people still love the feelings of being in love. There are bitter and sweet, just like chocolate, bitter and sweet, but still people love chocolate.

However, love really can change a whole lot of people, from physical to mental, or even from good to bad. Me, personally, love the feelings of being in love. Sometimes, it gives me bad time too. But, overall, it's sweet.. :)

~What guys need to know about girls~

As stated above, 'What guys need to know about girls?'

Guys, when this question is throw to you, what would you answer? I've done some obervation and survey on this title, although it's not done scientifically as what i've learn in research methods with hypothesis, literature review, so on. But, among my friends, i mean guys, when they were asked about this, they will probably said, 'girls, complicated..mafan..kepo..mood like weather, change easily..therefore, not easy to understand' true enough that girls don't watch football or be so cincai like most of the guys do.. what a girl wants is really simple (after my observation) *ehhem*

What a girl wants is just attention, and care. Maybe you might be wondering, doesn't i give her enough? isn't she greedy? most of the time, attention, cares and love are not enough. Just like money..you'll never stop asking for more, right? I just simply think that, girls need to be reassured that they are being love. Hugs, smses, phone calls can make them feel more secured.

Girls, do tell me if i'm wrong k?

*A book to recommend if you wanna know about guys and girls relationship : Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus

Thanks, Thanks and Thanks

I, hereby, would like to send my special thanks to my bf, Jay, who have been so kind to be with me when i'm facing problems, when i nearly broke down, when i nearly wanted to give up. Although he might not shower me with pressies, cash, or credit cards, *ehhem*, but he truly shower and flooded me with love and care. If this is just a dream, i rather don't want to wakeup. He's always be there for me when i'm down, when i really need him. He might not be perfect, but, who on earth is PERFECT?? I truly appreciate everything he'd done for me..

U EVOL I!!

This is a post specially dedicated to my bf.. those who aren't interested can just skip or roll down..nyehehehe...

~uneasy~

i'm feeling so uneasy right now.. so uncomfortable..
my palms are sweating..
my hands and feet are cold..
i know this isn't right..
i know i shouldn't be doing this..
but,
i just can't resist myself..
my heart is beating fast now..
this feeling is familiar, and i'm sure that i don't want this ever happen to me..
i've come across this experience before..
it ain't easy..
how am i going to survive until this is over?
i know i should be grateful, i MUST be grateful..
they're kind to help me..
and help me get through this trouble..
but,
i still feeling uncomfortable..
pls, hope that everything will be fine..

~14th February 2008~

Valentines, valentines, valentines.

Last night was Valentines, but I'm much more interested in 'bai ti kong'. I'm not sure why..heehee.. we drove around our neighborhood to see how people prepare for this big event which is actually celebrated by Hokkiens. Well, how the people here celebrate this event was similar as how my ah kong and ah ma actually 'conduct' it every year. The only different is the celebration here is much more bigger as compared to how i used to celebrate at home. There's lion dance, and lots of fire works. This event started at 12am, people started to prepare at around 9pm, bringing out table with RED cloth, gold paper (which is a direct translation as kim chua) , etc etc. i feel like slapping myself on my face for not taking down pictures, i was just looking around so excited..duh...My mummy used to tell me that we have to wear red and dress nicely for this event because it's a form of respect to the god. And guess what, as we were driving around, i noticed people were all dress up, wearing nice clothes putting on make ups. Then i received a call from my mummy asking me how m i bla bla bla and actually they were on their way to granny's house..arghh...how i wish i were there..i used to like this event so much where all relatives gathered around chit chat-ing, but now, most of my cousins were not at hometown, it's rather quiet tho, i guess...
However, not forgotting V-day, i have a pleasant night having beef steamboat, if it's what that calls. Although no chocolaty night, no flowers, no presents, but it's GREAT!! As my favourite blogger, Michelle said, everything doubled up it's price on V-day, wtf!! They are so good in making business...++ "A silent hug means a thousand words to an unhappy heart"

~what a girl wants?~

One day,

Boy: Dear, where would you like to have your dinner?

Girl: Anywhere you like dear.

Boy: How about char kuey tiao?

Girl: char kuey tiao? don't you think it's too oily? *wondering*

Boy: Then, where would you like to eat? *still very patient*

Girl: Anything will do la...

Boy: How about chicken rice?

Girl: *hmm* Too much of calories...

Boy: What's on your mind then? *starting to become impatient*

Girl: I really don't know.

Boy: Then just tell me when you have something in mind!! *angry*

Familiar with the situation above? I, sometimes can be the girl above, which i think if i were the boy, i'll get angry too.. *hmmm* --sometimes, girls are unpredictable, true?

Today is Valentines!!
Love is in the air!!
Who will be my Valentines??

Happy Valentines Day!!!!!!!

Sydney White

Whoa...have been watching movies lately..when will I stop those entertainment and concentrate on my bloody FYP? I'm totally still in CNY mood while the dateline to hand in the proposal is in two days time. And, here I am, still blogging!!

By the way, caught this movie just now --Sydney White, starring sweet Amanda Baynes and cute Matt Long. :)

This movie is about a college freshman, Sydney White (Amanda Baynes) , who decides to pledge at her mother's respectable old sorority, which is once upon a time dignified and respected. However, the pristine reputation has been tarnished now that tyrant Rachel (Sara Paxton) took over as Student Council President. *bukan main agah budak tu*. After surviving the sorority's vigorous pledging process, Sydney quickly banished for daring to question Rachel's regime. Now left with nowhere to go but a condemned house on the edge of Greek Row, the dejected and rejected pledge quickly makes friends with seven of the biggest social outcasts on campus. But while these socially challenged frat boys may not be much to look at, it gradually becomes apparent to Syd that they all have their fare share of admirable qualities - especially love-struck super-geek Tyler (Matt Long). Perhaps if these nerdy frat boys and their new queen could successfully shake up the system by staging a successful takeover of the student government, the could restore the once-proud reputation of this prestigious university and offer a glimmer of hope to campus geeks everywhere!

Overall, the movie was just OK, despite Amanda Baynes and Matt Long are so cute. The storyline was simple and predictable.
My ratings for this movie is 2/5. Worth to watch especially with families or when you have nothing to do.heehee..

~ C J 7 a.k.a A Hope ~

Have just watched CJ7 (Chang Jiang 7) with Jay through CD *ehhem*, starring forever-humorous Stephen Chow, and a cute little kid whose name is 'xiao di' in the movie. However, i managed to find out the real name of the cute kid is Xu Jiao, who actually is a girl in real life. This is another production of Stephen Chow with his typical touches. Although Stephen Chow received a top billing for CJ7, but the real stars of this movie is the cute kid and the adorable alien dog, which is named CJ7.

This movie is about a poor laborer father (Stephen Chow) and his young son (Xu Jiao). The father is always giving the best to his son although they were very poor, living in a small room. To cut the story short, an alien dog enter their live and bring joy and happiness to the young boy. Unfortunately, the father met an accident in his workplace and passed away. CJ7 over used his power to rescue the father. In the end, the father was alive and CJ7 died. He transformed into a cute little doll.

~Xiao Di and CJ7~

~The father and son~

My rating for this movie is 3/5. The kid have been very impressive, and he's very very c-u-t-e.

Stomachache!!

Wakeup early in the morning feeling so very stomachache.. *sigh* how i wish mummy you were here. She'll try her best to 'cure' me, thats why me and my siblings like to call her 'doctor mummy'. *sobsob* So uncomfortable. Maybe it's because of the extremely-spicy-but-goddamn-delicious tomyam.. feel like continue sleeping but when i lay down, my eyes were widely open. So, here I am, blogging!!

Anyone who stays at Melacca near Bukit Beruang or MMU (Multimedia University) can have a try on this tomyam at Nosh-up. The price of the food are reasonable for college students, my seafood tomyam noodle is RM4.50, with lots of sotong and prawns (i forgot to take down a picture of it). The food is delicious with lots of varieties from baba and nyonya food to thai food. An additional credit to this shop is that the owner is very, very, friendly. Highly recommended to MMU students.

Argh..my stomach really upset me!! Have to stop here and have a rest.

"you can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth"

-kuanru signing off

My dream....

There was a very heavy traffic at Raub and Bentong when we were driving from back to KL from Kelantan. However I managed to spot some of my dream cars along the way..:) I was thinking, when can I own one.. hiakhiak~

~Mercedes Benz SLK350~

and this....

~2008 Honda Civic~

Well, new year new resolution, and one of it is to achieve my dream. *daydreaming*

~February~ month of L.O.V.E.

Happy Birthday to my dear lil' brother, Mr. Lee Teck Hong..

" Happy burfday to you,

Happy burfday to you,

Happy burfday to you...

Happy burfday to you.."

He is so cute, cheeky and mischiveous, and i lurve him so much!!!

May you always be in pink of health..:) muakxs...

I'll be going back to KL tomorrow. Argh... Don't feel like going back... I really spend my whole week holiday with my family, and i have missed every class gathering, ex-classmates meeting, yum-cha.. "so sorry guyz..:)"

Valentine is just around the corner... it's the month of LOVE!!! Love is in the air...yahoo....

...speech-less...

'DON'T STOP ME FROM BUYING'

AllMalaysian Blogger

Discovered AllMalaysian Blogger from Michelle's blog, which i truly love to read whenever i'm free. She's so humorous. Her blog makes me laugh on my own while i'm reading it. She's a really good blogger. :) thumbs up to Michelle Tan.

See the AllMalaysian Blogger button at the sideof my blog? That from AllMalaysia.info. It's so cute and u can actually get information about blogging there. It's cool...:)

Chinese New Year is really very near, it's less than 24 hours. There's alot of preparation done during these few days, it starts ever since i came back from KL. Although we are exhausted, but we are happy with the result. We here, me and my family; and the result here is the cleanliness and the 'beautiful-ness' of our house..:)

Here, to wish all Chinese Happy Chinese New Year and Giong Hee Giong Hee..:)

If only..

So F-E-D-U-P!!!

People around me are wearing invisible 'mask' everyday..dealing with different people, they put on different masks..person's behavior is really complicated..you can't predict what they are going to do next or what they have done..Sometimes, Something just ain't enough for Somebody..#Yo, people out there, stop your drama and don't ask for more, you are making us sick every minute everyday, you look silly in our eyes..#

Forget all those jerk, spoil my mood..







Yes, steamboat tonight!!!! :)







Before i leave, here are some pics from Cameron Highlands that day..

~ Lovely strawberries~

~Can't help myself to stop upload those strawberries Picture~

~More.....strawberries...hee~

~I don't know what is this called, but there are some duri on those leaves~

~Hydrophonic Lettuce (I think they were lettuce..hopfully they were)~

~Home Sweet Home~

Here I am, in an air-cond room, on my cozy bed, writing this entry. It's so comfortable to stay at home. Finally.. After hectic weeks with assignments and FYP keep running in my mind, now i can at least cool down and rest my mind a little and put all those worries behind..

Just came back from this newly, opened Tesco here at Kelantan..So happy that there are Sushi, Strawberry, Raspberry, all kinds of berries, mushrooms and different kinds of them, alfafa, etc.. we couldn't get all of those here in Kelantan before Tesco is opened..it's pack with people, and familiar faces..

Forgot to mention, there is a Big Apple Donut in Tesco.. ^^ Yum, my stomach is growling for food NOW!!!

Before i go, here are some pics to be shared with:

*Any comment about this pic??* nyehehehe