~ People Unite? ~

Friendster? Facebook? MSN? YahooMessenger? Blogspot/Blogger? Hotmail? Yahoomail? Whatever-mail?

These things join people together? Connect people together?
Yea, true..they share one common function that people love most, can 'pat' (busy-body) with people's business. Cool..

Friendster and Facebook? Boring

MSN and YahooMessenger? I might consider it fun if there's a 'meaningful' conversation going on, otherwise, that's a 'no no'..

Does these all means that i'm isolating myself? Sometimes i just want to be alone, and sometimes i find myself enjoying those lonely moment. I'm CRAZEE!! I know.. But sometimes to be able to get myself some quiet moment ain't easy.

Talking with someone i really love to talk to really makes myself alot happier, and from there, makes me realize how big the world is, and how little things i know.

However, another someone i know, tends to think that they know EVERYTHING! and that really annoys me and pissed off.

To tell you, my friend, that wasn't brilliant to tell me everything you know, because what you've told me was so, so childish and that, my friend, reflects how naive and childish you are. Friend, please realize that we're grown up, and pleease bare in mind that, we, at this stage, should be able to differentiate what's right and what's wrong, ok? Don't be so childish, and act like a kid, or worst like a kid. It's so f'g fedup lor.. I wanted so much to tell you straight on your face, but, i hope that you realize what you're doing and thinking.

Anyway, Santa Clause is coming to town!! Christmas fever around me..

::kuanru:: signing off

~ So?? ~

When you feel helpless, who do you turn to? Me.
When you are occupied, who do you turn to? Not Me.
When you are bored, who do you turn to? Me.
When you are sad, who do you turn to? Me.
When you are happy, who do you turn to? Not Me.

When I'm helpless, who should i turn to? I don't know.
When I'm sad, who should i turn to? I don't know.

Should I trust You? You? or You? BFF? nah...

I know, there's always someone whom i can turn to. I know that that someone will always be there for me no matter what, listening to what i say, accompanying me for the whole night when i'm sad or down although that someone had been worn out with the daily workload. But, i've promise myself, to be independent.
'I' for I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T!!

Somehow, ok, may be i shouldn't be..

Well, I guess i just don't need that somebody afterall. Instead, I just need that someone. I don't want to care about that somebody's business. I don't want to know anything about that somebody. So, please don't tell me, don't ask me, I don't know!! I don't know!! I don't know!! And, I don't want to know!!

Argh.. so emo early in the morning.. So filled up with Mc Donald's breakfast set, and watching Fashion 70s' on 8tv, quite a nice Korean Drama anyway. Need to get back on track with Korean Drama. Heavy breakfast + nice drama. Hmm... Satisfy..

Piles of clothes needed to be wash, haven't started my Management yet. Move it move it..

*kuanru* signing off

~ When You're Silent.. ~

Every word speaks from your eyes. I read your mind, i read your thoughts, just like you always read mine. You always interpret perfectly what's running in my mind. It haven't been this perfect. Although it isn't in a perfect condition.

I hope to let you know that, even though you're silent, through your eyes, i know what you're thinking of something, something about me, about the future. I want to let you know that, no matter what, you're not alone.

Don't forget that, i'm your angel, send from above, to give you guidance all the way. And same goes to me...

::kuanru:: signing off *your eyes speaks for you*

~ Love from a FRIEND of mine ~

While i was arranging the photos in my lappie, i found this pic, which i had forgotten to blog about.

This pic was edited by this fella, named cassandra a.k.a shujuan a.k.a cassandra juan, which i don't know how to introduce her to everybody. I wonder how long did she took to crop out my body in each photos. Hmmm.. She sent me this on my birthday.. I know it was months ago, but nothing is too late right? This picture shows that we have been together since first year, first semester in my uni life. I witnessed her hair from long and curly, till long and straight, and then now short and straight.

My first impression for her was, this girl, is she a malay or not? she speaks chinese? or should i talk to her in english? When i first met her, she was cool. I was worried wether i can break the ice between us two. In our first group discussion, she seldom speaks. After when I knew her just a little longer, take note, just a little longer, and until now, we talk alot of crap. Whole loads of crap. No kidding. Sometimes, she can talk almost everything, from a to z.

The nicest part of all is, she was always there for me whenever i need her. She knows everything about me, is it 'everything'? Hmm..well almost everything. And, she is willing to share. I turn to her when i was helpless, and this girl, i don't know whether she is a god or what, whatever she says, heals my heartache. You see?

We will be graduating soon. Will we be meeting again after that? Will we still have alot to chat about during our reunion dinner or gathering? Will there be any gathering after that at the first place? How will life be without you? What will you look like in your thirties?

Dear God, thanks for sending her to me, who makes my uni life colorful. And, for your information, she's the only girl that is willing to share some 'nasty' jokes with me in uni. She can makes me laugh whole day!! I really don't want to see her sad, and may she live in joy and happiness for the rest of her life.

Thanks girl, for everything XD

::kuanru:: signing off *friends forever*

~ Simply Enough ~

I can't sleep, i can't sleep. I'm having insomnia. How? The sky is getting brighter and brighter. I'm still wide awake. But my eyes are tired. There are millions of things running in my mind. I have to solve it!!

Need a break, need a break, have some kitkat, have some nescafe. Finals are always the case, Insomnia. Am I just worrying about finals or other thing else?

#1. I miss home. I want to go home.
Oh ya, for your information, i'm gaining weight AGAIN!!! how can I? Mum, you'll be surprise with my super round face now. I don't even like to take pictures because of my round face. XD XD

#2. Hair cut.
I've got to have my hair cut before new year, because during that time, everything will be very expensive. Therefore, maybe this weekend or next, i'll visit the saloon. Any suggestion on where to have my hair cut? quite worried sometimes to let someone i don't really know to cut my hair.

#3. Can't think of any.
I've my brain clogged. Help!!! my brain is not functioning. maybe they're asleep. Better get back to bed before my alarm rings.

Good night

::kuanru:: signing off *simply enough*

~ The Un-Grateful Heart ~

Anyone around us knows anyone with an un-grateful heart? I guess there are alot. Even I do complained alot. Who doesn't, right? Someone is not satisfied with their life, someone is complaining about somebody, someone is not happy with something..every minute, someone is complaining...

Ever think of, when you start complaining about something, there are some others that are much more unfortunate than you are?

Someone complains about money.. always complaining about running out of money..
always think that you are poor? There are someone poorer than you, there are someone out there have to give up their education to earn for their living, for their family, since they were very young. Do you have to earn money for living when you were young? What were you doing and where were you when you were 10 years old?

Someone complains about studies, assignments, finals and exams.. someone don't even got a chance to study, to get into universities, how lucky you are, to have step into the uni life, how lucky you are, at this age, are still enjoying the life of a student..

Someone complains about homes and families... mummy don't love me enough, dad was too strict, mum love bro more than me, dad love sis more than me, in the end, nobody loves me.
Parents always love their children more than themselves! Someone out there live in an uncomplete family, someone out there don't even have a place called home, someone out there needs a home. But you? living in this wonderful place called home, full with love, and are still complaining. What more do you ask for?

Someone complains about love and life... my boyfriend is not caring, my girlfriend is not perfect; my boyfriend is selfish, my girlfriend doesn't have big boobs; my boyfriend loves to sleep and eat, my girlfriend loves shopping; my boyfriend bla, bla, bla... my girlfriend bla, bla, bla...; my life is not perfect, i want to live like a princess... This is it? being with someone you are not satisfied with? you don't love them? you don't want to be with them? if don't, then don't be; if do, stop complaining. Easy.. Someone lost their love ones every minute.. Someone live alone until the day they dies.. someone is suffering from some kind of diseases... and you, in a pink of health, are still complaining..

Someone complains about the government.. the government is unfair, the government is tricky, the government is this and the government is that.. when comes to election, they just stay at home. If not satisfy, go and fight for it!! and not just sitting there complaining.. you are living in a place with no wars.. you are still living with your family and the one you love, so, don't complain

Someone complains about job.. job satisfaction or salary? you choose. be realistic. how many of us got to choose the job we like but with high salary? you are not alone. life moves on. don't just complain. get your ass stick on the chair and love the job that you have chosen in the first place.

Someone complains about some un-related somebody.. hmm.. unrelated somebody? passers by.. eu, she wears like a dinasaur..argh..she's so ugly..yii..she's so fat..argh...she's ugly when she doesn't wears makeup...yuck, why on earth exist such a person? okay, none of your business, and you don't have to worried about them, at least, maybe, they are living to their fullest while you're there complaining about them.

The above someone is actually ME!!! tight slap on my face *piak piak*. I start to hate myself... however, little part of me thinks that, a little amount of complaining brings improvement to life, don't you think so? but too much of complaining is useless.. But, but, but, all in all, i'm happy with what i have now, with what i'm doing now, and with who i am now. There are more improvements tho'

After i wrote this post, i feel like slapping myself.. because, all this while, i'm that somebody, and i feel that, that somebody is really too much!! wuliao!! Somebody doesn't just satisfied with anything, and this somebody, definitely will not be me.

I promise, cross my heart, will try to be satisfied with what i have..

::kuanru:: signing off

~ It's December!! ~

It's DECEMBER!! Month of Christmas joy...

Is it snowing in London? Well, wht is it got to do with me if it is anyway? But, i want to feel snow, can I? hmm...

December means.....Christmas is near....very near...We wish you a merry christmas, we wish you a merry christmas, we wish you a merry christmas, and a happy new yiiieeeeer....!! Christmas trees everywhere..muahaha...Santa on a reindeer, ginger bread man (always wonder, what does ginger bread man got to do with christmas?), stars and snowflakes, christmas lighting, ahhh...christmas carols...i've mentioned these in the previous post.. I know, i know, i just want to share my happiness here ok? and i'm excited!! Christmas is always very happening among my family every year although we're not christian, it's just for the sake of eating good food and wearing christmas hat.. XD

Here is an addition for my christmas present wish list for SANTA!!

santa, santa, can you hear me?? I've just bought a new Christmas Sock, just for you, to put in the presents, and i'll hang it right outside my room. I'll be good, i promise... ^^

Enough of dreaming, have to study...finals.....

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Angry!! ~

I'm angry!!
I want to flame somebody!
I want to kill somebody!
I want to chop somebody's 'male's genital organ' (p***s) off!

The story goes like this:

I was waiting for the bus today at the bus stop, and mind you, the bus stop is beside a main road, and mind you again, it's 5:30pm, which means that, after work, and means that many cars passed by. I was there sitting alone waiting for the bus.

And, here comes a motorcycle. He stop by and was talking on the phone. Ok, talking on the phone, none of my business. After 10 minutes, still haven't left yet. 15 minutes, still on the phone..fine...from the corner of my eyes, i sense that something's wrong.. I can feel that he was looking at my direction.. Dun care, people talking on the phone, his business, maybe he wasn't looking at me, he's looking behind me. why must I care so much. Okaaayyy...

And, when i look at his direction, his hand was moving up and down, at his 'private' part.. you must be asking, 'how come you look at his there'..excuse me, this guy is freaking me off and i'm alone during that time..i accidently saw his f***'g L**C***!! I'm not wearing sexy outfit ok, a tee and jeans, and somemore sport shoes. What the hell on earth turn him on. FUCK!

I quickly jumped up to stop a texi, and he just chickened off..Maybe he thought that i stand up to chop his 'baby' off. I was so, so, pissed off!! Do you have other word to describe angry and pissed off?

To this Malay guy on the bike:
I'm not interested on your f'g BIRD ok!!??!! Go far far away to do your business. If I see you (or any others doing the same thing) again, I'll chop it off!! I really will CHOP it off..and u'll go bird-less for the rest of your life.

::kuanru:: signing off