~ I need to breath!! ~

My time was so pack!! Although internship is over, but why, still, 24 hours is not enough for me? I'm squeezing my brain juice for final reports. Sigmund Freud, I need you now!!! Oh, how i miss you so much. Haven't been listening to this name for quite sometimes. Kinda return the theories to the lecturers. Pages and pages of words from work to be typed out, need it in two days time. Final reports and work clashed. Which one should i complete first? Both are equally urgent. And, and, and, i'm going back on Wednesday!! Can i manage to finish it before then? Argh..... Dear God, please give me more time!! Or maybe, i need Time Management Courses.

FYI, I'm now at UTAR ICT. Oh, how i miss this place so much. Being in this icy cold room, i realize i haven't been here for months. I haven't been crapping with friends for weeks. Can't wait for next semester.

And, and, and.... Mooncake festival is around the corner. The moon will be very bright and round by then, and the diametre of my face is growing along with the shape of the moon, rounder and rounder. Stop asking me out for supper, Mr. I can't stand it anymore. I'm feeling my weight. I can't walk!! I even can see my cheek as i look down. Shit...i gain 3kg..!! I'm going to start a diet plan!!

::kuanru:: signing off *wish me luck*

~ 30 Hour Famine ~

Had been participating in 30 Hour Famine camp last saturday and sunday at Shuang Fu. I am really really tired. I think it would be more fun if there are more people participating in this event. It was really meaningful. I haven't been participating in any camp for the last 2 3 years. This reminds me of the past during secondary schools. I miss the old days, whereby all the campers slept under the sky counting the stars, sharing stories, gossips, sentry..those were the fun days.

30 hour famine, my first time, it was not bad after all. Besides having to fast for 30 hours which was quite suffering for me because i had heavy meals before the camp starts. *sobsob* Until at night, my stomach started to growl. I don't even had the mood to join the night activity. Luckily it was held at a place which i was so familiar with, i can take a rest, sleep, exempted from participating in the activity...haha...

For the last 4 hour, all the campers from other places gathered at Bukit Jalil Hockey Stadium. To my surprise, there were not many people there. And, and, and, it was quite boring plus the hunger and rain, the cold. makes me wanted to sleep. After all, it was a great experience for me.

Photos to be update...

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Wish you all the best ~

It's been quite a long time since i last updated my blog. Too many feelings, too many things had happened..I wanted to cry, but somehow, something, someone, hold back my tears.

Since the last message, since the last goodbye, we never contact again. Our story had come to an end, and i know it's time to let go and bit goodbye. It's really hard for me. Somehow, during that time, i wish he can say something to bring us back together, but, he din't. And from then, i know, he wanted this to happened. I appreciate the happy times we had been together. The ups and downs, and the tears and laughter we had shared together...

I know, i have to let go. I admit, i felt heartache, struggling to make this decision. But, i understand clearly, i'm not the one he love anymore. Since months ago. Since that day, when i was neglected, since the day i cried and felt helpless the most. My dear friend knew me best. She had accompanied me all this while. I'm too, very happy that, she support me with this decision. Thanks my dear..

Anyway, i wish him all the best, in everything, in every aspect. I really wish that we're friends, but i know, it's impossible. I hope he's happy, with what had happened..

::kuanru:: signing off *don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened*

~ The Path That I've Chosen ~

08.08.08

A date to remember. I've made a decision to choose a path that i never had think of. To love, or not to love. To give up, or not to give up. I know, today, this path that i've chosen will not be easy, this path needs alot of attention, this path needs patience, this path will even make me cry. But, because of him, i've learn alot. And because of him, i learn new experience. Because of him, i rather give up, and because of him, i know what to do.

I know, who needs me. I know, who should I be with. I hope that, i can change the reality. I can change the impossible into possible. Let love leads the way. Let God be the witness, and give us strength to move on.


::kuanru:: signing off

~ Ain't the same ANYMORE ~

Once, doing this is against my principal, but now, i'm doing it. My friend once told me, live happily NOW!! I, will, look forward. I'm going to live for myself, and not for others. I'm doing this because i'm happy with it. I'm really happy with it. OK??

::kuanru:: signing off