~ New Year Mood? ~

I'm back to Bandaraya Islam of Malaysia, the so-called Muslim state, i guess? Here's how my mood goes from KL to Kelantan. At LCCT, can't wait to go home, especially after i talked on the phone with mummy and sis one day before my flight. So wanting to come home and share juicy stories with the girls (ehhem, girls here do include my mum). And, I, during that time, am fully charged with Chinese New Year mood.

And when i'm finally here...

Here it is.
Remember the post i wrote about command and conquer? and FYI, the people are getting way too much!! Is there any ways to tell the people i don't like infront of their face politely? Any idea? Any comment will be ACCEPTED!! Now, i'm losing my CNY mood power. I want to regain my power.. HELP!!
Unhappy things happened tonight, which makes me so like wanting to run back to KL no matter walk or run i'm so going to get out of here! Which i now, at this second, by the way, has no CNY mood power at all!! NEGATIVE!!

What can I do? What can WE do to make everybody happy and satisfy?

Some people just don't know how to appreciate, do they? or do they not? Sometimes, thank you means alot. To that person, whom I don't think they know who they are, I really wanted so much and so badly to let them know that, We've tried our best to satisfy EVERYBODY!! And, i have give up my CNY mood to you!!

::kuanru:: signing off

~ EVIL ~

yi-vee-aiii-eelll, EVIL!! I'm living in a cruel world..

I need help!!

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Low, Low, Low ~

Back to English Songs. Haven't keep track on English songs since i was like standard 6? Every English songs that i listened was all out dated. But, now, thanks to me brother and my sista, i'm all back on track again, and, i love listening to Hitz fm now because i know almost every songs they played! Yes!!

Was recently listening to Low and You'll Think Of Me endlessly. My bro can sing You'll Think Of Me words by words. So man... I never thought that my bro had grown up so big and so fast!!! All so adolescene-cy. Argh..

Can't wait to go back. I miss my bro so much since for the first time he was not there at the airport to bid me farewell. Anyway, will be meeting him very soon, in like 3 days? Yes!! Can't wait to go back.

My sore gum had finally give me some new year mood!! Should i say Yes? or....??

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Bad People ~

Command and Conquer. What is it like to command and conquer somebody, and to be command and to be conquer by somebody? Big difference! I'm trying to be as polite as possible, but some people just like to take things for granted. I'm getting so fedup to see people acting as if they are the king and queen of the world, and people around them are their SLAVES and to serve them to 100%!! I don't think i'm supposed to mentioned everything about what i feel here because if i do, alot of people will be suffering. So, i'm just going to keep my mouth shut, and i guess people like lee kuan peng should know what and who i'm talking about, RIGHT? It is so shitty! Whenever i think about it, my heart burn like fire!

Chinese New Year's here soon, although not that much new year mood this year as the weather is so cloudy which makes me so moody. And first week of lectures are not FUN!! Physiological Psychology, what is that?? To learn why people's face turn red when they are shy? To have 5 counseling sessions video taped (Bold-Underlined-Italic-Increase Font Size) as our assignment for Counseling Praticum, What practicuum is by the way? What am I suppose to use to video tape the counseling sessions? And who is willing to share their pretty or handsome faces to the class? Substance Abuse as one subject for this semester. To learn about marijuana and heroine again? these names are nice, and i guess so do their effects to some people. But to study them in detail..?? All subjects in this semester are killer subject, plus FYP. How am i suppose to enjoy my Chinese New Year?

Anyway, there are still things that makes me HAPPY!!!

See, I've got this for no reasons!!

I've bought myself two ELLE casual shorts!!

I've bought myself two Bosini cute tees!!

I've bought myself two giordano tees!!

And that's all that makes me HAPPY!!!!

"When the dog bites, When the bee stings, When I'm feeling sad, I simply remember my favourite things, and then I don't feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel, soooooo bad!!!"

This works!! I miss Sound of Music!! Got to watch it again when I'm back.

::kuanru:: signing off

~ A Lucky Me ~

How is it possible to have someone like him to treat me like this?

I'm not going to haolian every details ablut how this somebody treat me. He's just so... I don't know how to describe, but he just understand me too well in such a short time!! he knows what i'm thinking every single time until it started to freak me out, wether he had a CCTV near me, or everywhere i go, or what, and i know, it is impossible. Even we're apart, he knows what I want. Is it i'm showing what i want on my face or what? I'll take all this as a good sign. At least, I don't have to tell him what I'm thinking and my worries every now and then. The concerns he had show, i never felt everything like this before! He is giving me spaces to grow, to be mature, in a way that he is not overprotected, but in the same time, he is protecting me. You see, haolian again. I know, I'll stop to haolian after this sentence: I'm so lucky!!! XD

Okay, end.

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Last Semester ~

New semester, and also the last semester is going to start soon. Last semester, what will it be like? First draft of FYP due in february, and here i am, stuck in chapter three, which means that 2 or 3 more chapters to go. Have been trying hard to keep my FYP on track, but still, to make things perfect, always turn out bad. So pessimistic me, so unlike me, but this is the way it is. I hope to pass my bachelor degree smoothly. Last semester, Gambateh!!

These few days, i was thinking what to do in the 2nd half of the year. This year, the year of Ox, for chinese calender, however, alot of fengshui master said that this won't be a good year, and it is better to stick to your current work, bla, bla, bla. However, economic downturn, retrenchment, bla bla bla...will there be any jobs out there? I wonder, however, when the Lord closes the door, somewhere He opens the window. The economic outside is not my business, what i have to mind is my own economic, right?

And, here is a little reminder for people out there: Don't try to take everything for granted..

::kuanru:: signing off *i'm so in love*

~ I Don't Know! ~

First of all, hi from Kelantan!! I'm at KELANTAN now!! Home sweeet home!! i love to be at home. The weather here is cold. Have been raining everyday since the day i came back. It's getting better these few days, at least, i can feel the ray of sunlight although only for a couple of hours, but, it's still cold!

Anyway, this isn't the point of my post today.

Since the day i'm back, I'm facing these questions from people..

1. When will you be graduating?
Ans: School reopen will be my last semester (fake smile on my face).

Then people will be like, ooo...and then proceed to the next question.

2. What will you do after you graduate? Further your study or working?
Ans: Erm.. Don't know yet.. Insya-allah, if got a chance to proceed my studies, i will, if not, i'll hunt for job.

3. What kind of work will you be doing when you come out? Work at tanjung rambutan?
Ans: No la..(fake smile again, on my face) I'm not that pro yet. I'm just studying general stuff.

4. Then, what kind of work will you be looking for?
Ans: Okay, seriously, i don't know.

People out there were expecting me to be able to handle with psychiatric patients, but, i don't know how leh. I haven't even deal with those people yet. I'll let you guys know if i've done that.
When facing with those questions, seriously, i'm really, really started to worry about what i'm going to do after my studies. Last semester is going to start soon, what am i going to do?
Any ideas?

::kuanru:: signing off

~ A Banana ~

What is BANANA? Fruit? People?

Well, it's a fruit.
And in the same time, it too describe a chinese who doesnt' know chinese, or refuse to learn chinese. Their mother tongue were either english, or they don't put a damn weight on chinese. Got me? Some people were chinese educated, but they act as if they were not, and end up speaking broken english, or mang-lish (Malaysia English) and refuse to speak chinese. Some chinese were english educated, but look down on chinese, don't even bother to try to speak chinese, and they were even ashame of being a chinese. Some even were looking for an english educated partners. What are the advantages of having an english educated partner anyway? I don't know. Do they have more money? or do they treat you better than others? ish...

However, i do admit that there are also people who are english educated but are willing to learn chinese, salute!! Some parents realize the important of Chinese and sent their children to chinese schools. See? That's the intelligent papa and mama.

Now, people, what's wrong with Chinese anyway? What's wrong of being a Chinese? American are learning Chinese, Thai singer (Chin) is learning Chinese, people from other country, from other races are learning Chinese. So, people, (especially those chinese who speaks english, or to those chinese who thinks that chinese aren't important), still thinks that being a Chinese embarras you? and speaking english shows that you have the so-call-standard in the society?

Both languages are equally important. And i'm proud to say that i'm chinese eduacted, thank YOU!! and for your information, i too, still can communicate in English if i want to.

eh-hem..haolian..

p/s: No offense. I'm writing this post because i'm too pissed of with those people who are bananas and who had their nose and eyes stuck on their head.

::kuanru:: signing off