~ Keren Ann ~

A friend of mine said to me one day, 'Hey, there's a singer Keren Ann, she's goooood', emphasizing 'good' with her smile on her chubby face. Who's Keren Ann? i asked. Never heard of before.

Immediately, i googled and youtubed her name. And i tell you, she's really good. Really really good.
Another singer with her own style. Very unique. Very talented. Very classic.
Her features are very outstanding, i would say, very pretty...

::kuanru:: signing off

~ I miss you ~

3am. Alone. In a room. And, I miss you.

I know, I shouldn't. But, I can't help myself. Again!! Alot of time, i asked myself, 'why should i do this to myself?' No answer to this.

Once upon a time, u filled up my life with laughter and stories, u phoned everyday just to say hi, u told me that you're happy and proud upon my success, and u promised to make it once a week.

But, it's just months away. And, everything had changed. A drastic change.. We are not once we were anymore. Perhaps, we should be how we are back then. At the beginning. I've gone too far. I admit. It's clear that this is a dead end relationship. But again, i can't help myself. The memories are still fresh in mind. From day one we met each other.

Law of attraction had once worked. But it seems to had lost it's magical power. No matter how hard i've tried, it doesn't seems to work. My phone won't ring with your name appear on the screen anymore.

I've promised myself to let go, and I have to...

Pictures fade away, but memories are forever.

Dear God, please give me strength to move on...thank you!!

::kuanru:: signing off

~ My Favorite Things ~

When the dog bites, When the bee stings,

When i'm feeling sad,

I simply remember my favorite things

and then I don't feeeeeeeeel,

sooooooo bad....

or

When I find myself in times of trouble,

Mother Mary comes to me

speaking words of wisdom
Let it Be...

Loves singing these two verses when i'm down and hopeless, which, really helps alot..

Remembered last weekend, me, mummy and my sister walked from Concorde Hotel to KLCC. Although it's just a 10 to 15 minutes of walk, i've been having sore heels. Heels are NOT walking shoes, even it's Scholl or Hush Puppies. Mummy always said, 'buy a pair of expensive good shoes is better than buying 10 pairs of bad shoes'. True enough, a nike shoes and a Scholl heels, that's all i need. No more Vincci, no more MOD, or whatever shoes that make my legs swell after hours of walking.

Back to the story. While i'm having sore heels, and so do mummy's, both of us decided to sing My Favorite Things from Sound of Music. Sound of Music is always our family's favorite movie. Each of us can memorize lines after lines. With our burning legs, I guess both of us have our favorite things in our mind. The rest of the walk back to the hotel is much more comfortable. Maybe the singing distract us from the pain. Psychology do works.. :)

I've been really miserable these few days. Even singing out loud to myself doesn't work. One day, a box of cupcakes set beside my bed after i wokeup. That makes the rest of my days much more happier. It's not those expensive cupcakes sold at The Curve tho', but i'm just loving it. He knows me the best.



Other things that i found which able to make me happy....

Sesame Street, childhood everyday-must-watch show. Loves Elmo so much, and the cookie monster is so cute. I miss Bert and Ernie, Big Bird, and the Sesame Street big family. How i wish i were 15 years younger, where there were no troubles to worry about.

Mr.Men LittleMiss have been my favorite recently. Have kept some little books from these series. I've wanted to buy the whole series from MPH warehouse sales the other day, but it cost 100 over bucks which is much over my budget, and i don't think i'll ever read it. Can't be deny that the drawings are really nice and cute, which will brighten up my days. Well, i guess having two Mr.Men LittleMiss tees from Bossini, and a Mr.Men LittleMiss tumbler is good enough. My new role model: Little Miss Sunshine!!! Yay!!!

I love cute things!!! Who doesn't????

::kuanru:: signing off

~ The Wedding ~

Grand opening for my cousin's new chapter of life, her wedding! Congratulations!

Her wedding, from kb to kl, and takes four days. The bride is pretty, and really she is. I don't think not much of her photo here. She's busy like a bee on that day. And seriously, i need diet. Tsk....

Let the pictures do the talking..

Our family, although it's not complete in the picture, but the new couples have the blessing from everyone!!

The cousins and me

The cousins and me (i know, i'm already on a diet plan here, don't remind me of how round my face looks)

my pretty mummy, sister and cousin

The groupie

Isn't she pretty? *blush*

The pretty sister of mine

Everyone was pretty *big grin*. Everyone was happy. Congratulations again to the newly wed couple. :)

It's a love story...baby just say yes!!!!

The End.

This is something nothing to do with the above:
A friendly and stern reminder to the stupid theives out there. Awak akan dapat balasan awak daripada god awak. Fuck the theives who like to steal. Ohh, i forgot, theives love to steal, bo bian. Hell, go to hell you this people. GO TO HELL, FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! #$%^& To others, please really take good care of your belongings. Don't think that the PENCURI can did nothing to your bank account because they don't know your password. FYI, they know. And how the hell they know, i don't know. Don't let people get any of your belongings, including IC or ATM cards.

The End.

::kuanru:: signing off

~ A Little Bit Of Something ~

Haven't been feeling this great for quite awhile. Spending time with family is always my main concern in life. Let me think again, maybe there will be chaos with each other, or some shoutings here and there, but it’s still wonderful to be with them.

Someone asked me when I went back to my hometown, ‘why don’t you go out and yumcha with friends?’ or ‘why you always stay at home?’ or ‘why you always stick with your mummy?’, or I might heard from someone saying that I’ve no friends. Yea, I’ve anti-social personality disorder. Sob sob… why can’t I spend more time at home than outside from home? Why does that have to bother anyone? I don't understand. Spend hours and hours outside from home doesn’t show that you have lots of friends.

Lalala, I just love to stay at home, choy meh?
Lalala, I’m an introvert, choy meh?
Lalala, I love to stick with my mummy, choy meh?

Lalala, I'm not a social butterfly, choy meh?

Lalala, I've autism, choy meh?

Childish me. But I just love to be at home.

Random pics to cool myself down a little, however, I just think they lack of something, but obviously, I’m gaining something -- kgs.

World through cons, thumbs up

Fresh roses, who can resisit it?

an antique calculator? or what was that antique thingy?

Nasi lemak without nasi lemak, instead of nasi putih. *Jaya One Old Town, curse u*

The end of superly random pictures.

Lastly, I'm in love with Tess Stimson's novel *Big grin*

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Haih..~

knowing that it has really reached to an end really hurts me alot. I don't know where it comes from, and i don't know what stimulates my tears glands, but i know, it hurts.

During the outings, everything was going along well like before, the smile, the jokes, the laugher, the touch, and the only thing lacking, is the passion. Knowing that everything is not going to be the same anymore makes me even weaker.

True enough, it's a long way to go, he said. But deep down inside me is crying for help, i shouldn't had end it. and now, life have to move on. He'll always had my blessings..always...

::kuanru:: signing off

~ I mean, Shhhh.... ~

It's so annoying just by hearing your voice. I don't know why, perhaps is the hatred which have been unconsciously evolve since 20 plus years ago. There you are, unchanged, still the same old you. Some might said, it’s your style, and that, my friend, isn’t call uniqueness. Some might said, without the irritating sound of yours, it is not you. I agree. Why are you so irritating? I tried to respect you, I really do. Well, sometimes you’re so good to be true, which I think is to let others know how good you are, to show others the angelic side of you. But, it doesn’t work for me, or us, who’ve seen this show for n years.

I only can say that, there’s no perfect human being in this world.

You say it best, when you say nothing at all. And I mean really nothing.

Bye.

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Halitosis ~

I’m now superly pissed off, if there’s other more powerful words to replace super? You’re welcome to give suggestions. Please allow me, mchcb@#$%^&...

*feeling better, thank you*

I have had enough with people who’ve halitosis (it’s a metaphor here), no offence. Halitosis, introduced by one of my former tutor, to describe one who’v'd bad mouth, who likes to humiliate others publicly or secretly. That’s what happened to me today, or in fact, always.

Okay, I need to know how to handle these people, no matter who they are, relatives, fiends, non friends, strangers or what so ever. FYI, my friends won’t humiliate. Parents and siblings won’t. Why should a stranger humiliates me, if they do, who cares???

I know, low education, and again, no offence here, is not an excuse. Some people just love to mix with the elites, and they should know the rules. Oops, I’m not an elite, that’s why. Now I know the reason.

I can’t slap them on their face or humiliates back or do anything impolite, can I? Is there any revenge in a polite way? Of course besides blogging it out, which doesn’t seems to be any polite?

I’m so pissed off with this kind of people. How long am I going to face them?

::kuanru:: signing off

I've nothing to say, blogging is not a way to pour my feelings into anymore. I need to care who reads it, who feels it, who feels hurt after reading it, and those who feels it will start spreading rumours and cry their heart out pretending innocent, and me, will become the lion bullying a rabbit (catch the metophor).

Bla bla bla...i'm done..

::kuanru:: signing off

~ Leave Me Alone ~

Suddenly, i feels like locking myself inside the closet.

As time pass, i feels the urge of tension coming towards me. I've been asking myself endlessly, 'ok, what next?'. It's July, i've been practically doing nothing for a month, besides those little stuff which i think useful. But after those 'useful' stuff, i'll be asking myself again, 'ok, what next?'.
Parents have been 'encouraging' me to do my postgrad at Australia. But the fee is not cheap compared to the locals. I know, the value of the cert is different. So? When people see certificate from Australia, like University of XXX, they will go 'oooh and ahhh', when people see certificate from Malaysia, like Universiti XXX (note the 'y' and 'i' of university), i think they'll just ignore although both of them were certified Master Degree. Agree?

That's why.

I totally agree that it's better to have experience out there. I want to. I'm still young and lots of opportunity. But halo, the fee is 4 or 5 times more expensive than local U's, plus the loan i owe, the installment, with the salary of a fresh grad. You see...? My concern? Those uncles and aunties will say, why not go Aus? My daughter or my son, or whose daughter or whose son were studying there, they were good. But, that is Degree. See? They pay for once, and get a paper same level as mine, and people were bugging around. And now i realize, why people have chose twinning programme in the first place.

Okay, right now, I've decided, local U's that is. After one and a half year, get some working experience, do my PhD or another Master Degree oversea, or have a work or whatever there, for a year. Experience huh...makes me nuts.

Micheal Jackson's 'You're Not Alone' used to work on me, but now? not anymore. Guess he brings the song away from me together with him.

::kuanru:: signing off