~uneasy~

i'm feeling so uneasy right now.. so uncomfortable..
my palms are sweating..
my hands and feet are cold..
i know this isn't right..
i know i shouldn't be doing this..
but,
i just can't resist myself..
my heart is beating fast now..
this feeling is familiar, and i'm sure that i don't want this ever happen to me..
i've come across this experience before..
it ain't easy..
how am i going to survive until this is over?
i know i should be grateful, i MUST be grateful..
they're kind to help me..
and help me get through this trouble..
but,
i still feeling uncomfortable..
pls, hope that everything will be fine..