After being a teacher myself, trying to give my very best to my students, but they're not appreciating it, *not all, but some*, it's really disappointing. Being a teacher, is not just simply go to class, take out a book, read a few lines, and end of it, but it's our responsibility to make them understand, to make them learn as much as possible.

I'm putting in my patience, but i don't see them putting in their efforts. It's rather frustrating see them not improving, let me see some improvement, even a little bit of improvement will make me happy.

They're blessed with two hands, two legs, 10 beautiful fingers, really beautiful fingers, more beautiful than mine, seriously, my friends know what my fingers condition like, blessed with a piano, some with grand piano, blessed with good family condition, blessed with the opportunity to learn, blessed with everything..

But, too bad, they don't appreciate it. Perhaps, i should put more patience. But, some of them really give me those 'i'm-better-than-you' look.

I really feels like letting them watch this video, to see how people really live their life to the fullest...



Not only to my students, even to me as a reminder, all those people out there, keep complaining about life...He, as a disabled, never give up on himself. Never say tired. Going forward..

::kuanru:: signing off.

my head...

I'm listening to Kiss The Rain again, yes again. i've always love soft sentimental ones.

It's been almost half year past, what have i done for my thesis? Looking at the calender on my study table, i've not following timetables. I've NEVER follow timetables. I hate it. I'm so far left behind. I've nothing in my head. I can't see clearly what's in front of me.

Will i be able to do this?

FYP seems easy after looking at this thesis. I used to crack my head when thinking about FYP, but looking back, it's really....

I've started the first step, i've really no turning back. Lots of things have no turning back.

We're always tied up by datelines, don't we?

::kuanru:: signing off

Tappity Tapper

Nothing to do?

Busy with thesis like me?

Note to Heaty: You can play this game when you're feeling so stressful that you feel like killing everyone around you : )

Feel lazy for awhile...

Try playing:

Tappity Tapper
a game bought to you by Cadbury

You'll enter a very chocolatey world.

Of course, you've to register yourself in order to play, because you'll stand a chance to win Wii, Ipod Shuffle, or Movie Vouchers.

Wondering what the game looks like?

By looking at this, guess all the smart-you knows how to play, and what is the game like, right?

All you just need to do is stay in sync with the tune!! As easy as that. This reminds me of O2 jam back in those days.

Got to keep practicing my Tappity Tapper, to get my name on the Hall of Frame.

Good luck guys : )

::kuanru:: signing off

how do you do?

Have you ever experience, when someone ask 'how are you', you'll feel your hair stands?

my conclusion after i've experienced it for many times (*note: many times) is:

when they ask 'how are you', means that they might be expecting you to answer 'no good. i fall down in a drain, broke my arm, spilled my brainjuice, broke up with my bf because i can't think and walk anymore...',

and,

when they answer 'sorry to hear that, how are you now? be strong, i'm always there for you, bla bla bla...' or stuff like that, they are actually feeling happy inside.

but, if you answer 'i'm good, how about you'

you'll never see or hear any reply from them again.

agree?

so, for you, who actually wants me to fall in a drain, and never see sunshine again, i'd like to tell you, I'M GOOOOOOOD.........NEVER HAS BEEN THIS GOOD BEFORE...

::kuanru:: signing off

One day, i was walking past a pet shop. I stare at the window. There's a little voice in my head started to sing,

" How much is that doggy in the window
The one with the waggley tail
How much is the doggy in the window
I do hope that doggie's for sale"

I love pet shops. Everytime i stick my nose on the glass pane, looking at the little golden retriever, my all time fav dog, i know i'm gonna have it one day.


i can't have it now. It's too pricey, too high maintenance. Too big!!

So, instead, i plan to have a hamster.

Exactly like this one.


They were so cute. Right that night. I phone 'Heaty'. She asked me, 'are you committed to it?' She always used these serious word to scare me off. Well, true enough, i don't know how to answer. If I were committed, how committed am I?

Sometimes, I was surprise at how people easily decide what pet to own, what pet to buy, there and then. It's like buying clothes at pasar malam.

Then I saw the two green fella. I think, this will be easier to be taken care of. Low maintenance. But again, commitment issue strike me again. Heaty punya pasal


** A note to Heaty, because of the word 'committed', i drop my pet plan**

p/s: I've always missed Heaty...^^

::kuanru:: signing off.

used to be

i used to wait for your phone call every night, holding my w800i in my hand, waiting for your name to appear on my caller id...

i used to look through our pictures taken together, again and again, thinking of what we've gone through together...

we used to sms each other, concerning about each other, sharing our tears and laughter, frustration and anger, dreams and hopes...

we used to buy each other presents, writing each other 'love letters'...

we used to do a lot of stuff together, searching for hidden delicious food, movies, shopping, even walking in a park...

everything used to be so sweet,

but now, we have become strangers...

we used to be 'we',

but now, it's just you and I...

i can't turn back the time, i can only look forward, collecting pieces of my memory, with every step of me moving forward...re-building stories in my life...

i never regret that it happens...whatever it is...

::kuanru:: signing off

And...

World Cup 2010 fever is over. Spain won.

My first expectation, was Brazil vs Argentina. But surprisingly, both lost.

Second expectation, was Holland vs German in the finale. Again. Dissapointment.

In the final, i bet Spain will win the final. For the first time, i win.

I guess i can't be Paul the Octopus. I bet that octopus will never thought that he can be so famous. Everyone is talking about him. All over the internet, my fb news feed, google, yahoo home page, newspaper, mamak kopitiam...even in the toilet.

Four years later, it will be in Brazil. Will the octopus still be alive? Or another living being will come out with another prediction? Maybe the animals communicate well, with the universe. : )

Wavin' Flag has been everywhere. I mean really everwhere. I even know how to sing it now, of course not the African language part. Still can't get it tho'

I enjoy watching 12 men, nope, it's 24 men, running across the field, a very big field, for a ball, especially with a big bunch of unknown people. I guess, i'll never watch english premier league again after this world cup. England player is not as good as i thought.

Nyway, back to the old life again. No more checking the scores every morning i wakeup. No more mamak for balls late at night. I'm having triple and quarduple layer of swimming floats around my waist. Time for me to get back to my normal life. : )

Adios...

::kuanru:: signing off